Jesus is Lord!

Reprinted, with permission, from the 1987 (SHILOH SHEPHERDS) NEWSLETTER, pg. 8, written by Tina M. Barber.

 

For the past several months I have talked to some preachers about writing a "One Page Sermon" for my Newsletter. They all pretty much agreed that it would be very difficult to "convict" someone about the gospel in such a short space! Then one of them suggested that I simply write my "testimony"! All Christians share their testimonies with each other - it's like telling the story of a famous ancestor among the family members. Sort of like a family discussing their Great Great Grandfather, each member of the family has a PERSONAL relationship with that person, yet if you start to tell a "STRANGER" they will tell you to "get lost". So most Christians are afraid to "tell their story" outside at the "body of Christ - The Church". I’m sure that most of the people that read this will brand me as a FANATIC- Well Praise the Lord! They branded my Savior the same way - they even went as far as accusing him of possessing "DEMONIC" powers! The MOST RELIGIOUS PEOPLE - THE PRIESTS - EVEN CRUCIFIED HIM! So if you want to call me a fanatic I will just take that as a blessing!

Maybe my testimony will help only one "brother or sister" in the Word - or maybe it will lead just one person to the truth - then pouring out my heart to anyone that will listen - just so I can possibly reach "some" will all be worthwhile! 1Cor 9:22

On Feb. 26, 1974, in a back pew at First Bible Baptist Church in Greece, N.Y., I accepted Jesus into my heart. This didn’t come about easily--I was born a rebel, with a fire and drive that few people ever attain. I grew up totally independent-- at 14 I was a "professional" dog trainer--I was competing with Schutzhund (attack) dogs against all sorts of men, the only woman at that time doing such things!

By the time I was a teen, I had such an "EGO" it would have put "FONZIE" to shame! I ran with the "wild crowd". I broke horses during the day and worked as a go-go dancer at night--and owned a herd of German Shepherds that were so well trained, we gave demonstrations at all kinds of shows, fairs, and exhibitions. My life was so hectic I had no room for religion - even though I was raised as a Catholic. I rejected any form of religion at 17, when my grandmother died.

I’m just not the kind of person that has "Blind Faith"! Religion was full of HYPOCRISY--They were all a bunch of self-righteous PHONIES! Then in ‘72 I moved to Bailey Rd. in Hilton, with my husband and two little boys. We bought the property because it was ideal for my dogs, but the realtor warned us that our Road was called "Holy Hill" because there were FANATICS living all over the place!! I laughed and told him not to worry--We were tough--my husband was a ‘Black leather Jacket" biker-you know "DRUGS, BOOZE, AND HARLEYS". I'd seen Rick whip 4 men in a bar once--he had "BORN TO RAISE HELL" (among other things) tattooed right down his arm! So when these people started knocking on our door to "witness" they were in for a big surprise! They were always met by my husband (usually in a demonic-drug crazed mood) and several "attack" dogs!

I chose to ignore them at first, but they kept on ‘preaching" until I got SO ANGRY, I STARTED TO FIGHT BACK! I had been a fighter all my life-- always the leader--I thought I KNEW it ALL! I'd show these pathetic wimps--I DON’T NEED A CRUTCH! I WAS SO HARD, NOTHING could touch me! Yet the more l fought "him" --the more he broke my heart--I fought like a fish out of water--but he kept drawing me like a magnet--MY HEART WAS LIKE HARD COAL, but he wanted to turn it into a diamond! I wrote the entire testimony of that night in February when my lights wouldn’t work, and how I got trapped into waiting at the church--and how I ended up listening to that preacher--but it was too long--so all I will repeat is the end--ACTUALLY THE BEGINNING--I will never forget that night! I had been "preached to" by so many people for over 2 years, and I always gave them such a good fight!

Even though deep inside, I could feel Jesus trying to "touch" me - I just kept REJECTING Him! I would tell these Christians - "You can’t prove the Bible is TRUE!" and Jesus would say "BUT THE NATURAL MAN RECEIVETH NOT THE THINGS OF THE SPIRIT OF GOD; FOR THEY ARE FOOLISHNESS UNTO HIM; neither can he KNOW THEM, because they are spiritually discerned." 1 CORR. 2:14.

Yes, I did say JESUS said this to me because HE IS THE WORD--made flesh--and the Bible IS A LIVING book! If you think I’m NUTS--then why don’t you stop being afraid of it and CHECK IT OUT! NOBODY HAS EVER BEEN ABLE TO PROVE IT WRONG! The Bible is the MOST scientifically correct book you could find anywhere! God said He would preserve his word - and Satan hasn’t ever been able to get rid of it! So instead he tries to perverse it by teaching lies--THE BIGGEST LIE has been RELIGION! There’s so much going on around us each day that we are not aware of! FOR WE WRESTLE NOT AGAINST FLESH & BLOOD, but against PRINCIPALITIES, against powers, against the rulers OF the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in High Places. EPH 6:12. John 16:32 "These things I have spoken unto you that in me ye might have peace- In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world." I would like to urge everyone to get a NAVE’S TOPICAL BIBLE and look up words like "WORLD" and read exactly what God has to say about it! Also words like "SIN", "HELL", "JUDGMENT", "SATAN", IGNORANCE", "CHURCH", "FAITH", "GRACE", "PRIEST". "HYPOCRISY", "REPENTANCE", "RIGHTEOUSNESS", "GOD", "LOVE", and "SALVATION"! I promise you Jesus will touch your heart! Read about TRUTH - Jesus said, "I Am The Way - The Truth and The Life - no man cometh unto the Father but by me!"

"FOR THE WORD OF GOD IS OUICK, AND POWERFUL, AND SHARPER THAN ANY TWO EDGED SWORD, PIERCING EVEN TO THE DIVIDING ASUNDER OF SOUL AND SPIRIT, AND OF THE JOINTS AND MARROW. AND IS A DISCERNER OFTHE THOUGHTS AND INTENTS OF THE HEART." Heb. 4:12

The WORD was pounding in my head - I’d wake up at night remembering certain verses! I just had to prove to myself that this was just some kind of big SCAM! I wasn’t stupid enough to believe what some "PERSON" told me--I was a leader--not some weak "gullible" fool!

I am ashamed to admit--that I started asking God for a "sign" and then each time He gave me one--I would just chalk it up as coincidence! Thank God that He is patient and long suffering, not wishing that ANY should perish! This "WAR’ inside of me grew stronger and stronger--my husband got worse and worse--things were coming apart at the seams--I screamed for those people to leave me alone! Yet I could feel God’s hand in my life, and he was becoming more and more real!

THE FOOL HATH SAID IN HIS HEART, THERE IS NO GOD- Psalm 14:1 THE HEAVENS DECLARE THE GLORY OF GOD: AND THE FIRMAMENT SHEWETH HIS HANDY WORK Psalm 19:1. For the preaching of the cross is to them that perish foolishness: but into us which are saved it is the power of God. 1 Corr.1:18, For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to SAVE THEM THAT BELIEVE. 1 Cor 1:21

What was this all about? Did I really need salvation? I was a good person--granted, maybe I was a bit wild, but I was honest--I didn’t steal or cheat--I worked hard, I took Pride in my accomplishments--then I got stuck in that church that night and I heard a sermon about PRIDE! I heard about Satan’s "I" trouble -"I" will ascend "I" will be like the most high - It went on and on.

BOAST NOT THYSELF OF TOMORROW, FOR THOU KNOWEST NOT WHAT A DAY WILL BRING. Prov 27:1. COME NOW, LET US REASON TOGETHER, SAITH THE LORD ISA.1:18 WHERE AS YE KNOW NOT WHAT SHALL BE ON THE MORROW, FOR WHAT IS LIFE? It is a vapor, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away. James 4:14. It all started to come together- FOR WHAT IS A MAN PROFITED IF HE SHALL GAIN THE WHOLE WORLD, AND LOSE HIS OWN SOUL? Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul? Math 16:26. For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh, but they that are of the Spirit - the things of the spirit Rom.8:5-6-7 and 8, So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God. John 3:7 MARVEL NOT THAT I SAID UNTO THEE, YE MUST BE BORN AGAIN!

All these verses kept going through my head, as this lady, with the sweet southern accent turned around facing me and asked, ARE YOU SAVED? Right then and there I came unglued--I became MUSH! The pride slipped away, the SHELL HAD CRACKED - and the Holy Spirit could come in! On my knees, in the back of that church, with tears streaming down my face as Nancy read verses, I asked Jesus to come into my life! Immediately I had a hunger for The Word--I went home that night to read Revelations!! Jean had told me that if I got saved, I would be able to understand the Bible--before that night reading it just didn’t make any sense--but after I got saved, it was as if a veil had been lifted--and the book became alive and I understood! After reading the word, I realized how wrong "religion" really was--and I proceeded to study ONLY the Bible--not what man has said--only what GOD said! If you don’t know his word, Satan has you pinned against the wall!

He that rejecteth me, and receiveth not MY WORDS, hath one that Judgeth him: THE WORD THAT I HAVE SPOKEN, THE SAME SHALL JUDGE HIM IN THE LAST DAY. John 12:48. STUDY TO SHEW THYSELF APPROVED UNTO GOD, A WORKMAN THAT NEEDETH NOT BE ASHAMED, RIGHTLY DIVIDING THE WORD OF TRUTH, 2 Tim 2:15.

Then Satan came along and said are you CRAZY? You have just been divorced, you now have your whole life ahead of you--and you choose to become like those fanatics?! That’s when I realized that being a "Christian" wasn’t going to be easy!! That was the beginning at a long road--full of lessons--But even though I walked through the valley of death many times, in many different ways, HE HAS NEVER LEFT ME OR FORSAKEN ME!

When I’m "right" with the Lord--in the Spirit--as I study the Word I have found that he gives me the greatest "HIGH" I have EVER experienced. NOTHING compares to it! Nothing!

These past 14 years I have spent many hours studying the scriptures--as with everything else I do--I jumped in with both feet!! I certainly don’t have ALL the answers--but I do have many!! I regret that I have not spent as much time on the other subjects of the Bible, as I have spent on Prophecy--but that has been my "gift" right from the start. I have done many deep searches and studies on various topics--but I always end up on prophecy--it is so exciting to be living in the "last days" that sometimes I just can’t understand why people just "go on living" without any desire to "feast" on the things God has revealed to us about our future!

I have read practically every commentary ever written from Clarence Larkin, to Colin Deal - and have received all of the Newsletters from all over (mostly from Christian brothers and sisters in different parts of the country that I met through Shiloh). Yet never before have I felt such an URGENCY about sharing what God is revealing to me! We ARE living in the LAST DAYS! What God prophesied 4,000 years ago has come to Pass - The signs are all around us - but worst of all--APOSTASY has slowly been setting in!! BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE PLEASE READ GOD’S WORD!

There is so much more that needs to be said - but I’m out of space. Recently I read a book by JEWS FOR JESUS - It’s full of testimonies - I would strongly urge you to get a copy and read it - It shows how different people from all walks of life, backgrounds etc-, all having one thing in common (Jesus) found the road to Salvation! Please write to:

MOISHE ROSEN
60 HAIGHT STREET
SAN FRANCISCO, CA 94102-5895

If you go to a Christian Book Store, ask far THE NEXT MOVE by LINSTED or get HIDDEN PROHECIES IN THE PSALMS by J.R. CHURCH, RUSH TO ARMAGEDDON by TEXE MARRS, COMPUTERS and The BEAST of Revelation by WEBBER/HUTCHINGS, THE CHEMISTRY OF THE BLOOD by M.R. DeHAAN and of course all the CLARENCE LARKIN books and HAL LINDSEY etc..

P.S. Someone that read this just screamed at me ‘you can’t print this in this Newsletter! People don’t want to hear it - you will lose all your business!!! Nobody will buy dogs from you - They will think you have "flipped".

And the Spirit brought to remembrance 2 Tim.1: 12 FOR THE WHICH CAUSE. I ALSO SUFFER these things: NEVERTHELESS I AM NOT ASHAMED: For I KNOW whom I’ve believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day. You see, the Word has an answer for everything - if you will only open your heart and let him in! BEHOLD, I STAND AT THE DOOR, AND KNOCK: If any man hear my voice and open the door - I will COME IN TO HIM!! Rev. 3:20. He that testifieth these things saith, SURELY I COME QUICKLY. Amen. Rev. 22:20

EVEN SO - COME LORD JESUS!

About 8 months ago I prayed that the Lord would fill my lonely hours, now don’t get me wrong I love my children and would be lost without them - I love my dogs and need to be with them, - but I need adult human contact. Sure I get calls all day long from people all over the world that ask about my dogs, and people drive here -and fly here from everywhere to talk dogs - but they don’t fill my human emotional VOID. In September I tried to turn totally to the Word - and I filled my spiritual need, bull I still had a big emotional HOLE left.

So I asked God desperately to fill that EMPTINESS - and boy did he ever answer my request!! (Not exactly the way I expected) - but then he said "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways saith the Lord. Isaiah 55:8!!

The next day I got a call from a dear lady that was getting one of my pups - She called about her pup, and we ended up talking for 3 hours about the Lord!! She said I had really helped her spiritually - and that she felt my answers were a "God Send" to her!! This was the beginning of my phone counseling sessions! Since then I have had many people state that I have helped them find the answers they were seeking –If I can be of any help to you - PLEASE CALL!! God has an answer for all of mans’ problems - in His word!

Please follow Tina's progress by continuing to the next chapter.


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