Reprinted, with permission, from the 1987 (SHILOH
SHEPHERDS) NEWSLETTER, pg. 8, written by Tina M. Barber.
For the past
several months I have talked to some preachers about writing a "One Page Sermon"
for my Newsletter. They all pretty much agreed that it would be very difficult to
"convict" someone about the gospel in such a short space! Then one of them
suggested that I simply write my "testimony"! All Christians share their
testimonies with each other - it's like telling the story of a famous ancestor among the
family members. Sort of like a family discussing their Great Great Grandfather, each
member of the family has a PERSONAL relationship with that person, yet if you start to
tell a "STRANGER" they will tell you to "get lost". So most Christians
are afraid to "tell their story" outside at the "body of Christ - The
Church". Im sure that most of the people that read this will brand me as a
FANATIC- Well Praise the Lord! They branded my Savior the same way - they even went as far
as accusing him of possessing "DEMONIC" powers! The MOST RELIGIOUS PEOPLE - THE
PRIESTS - EVEN CRUCIFIED HIM! So if you want to call me a fanatic I will just take that as
Maybe my testimony will help only one "brother or sister" in
the Word - or maybe it will lead just one person to the truth - then pouring out my heart
to anyone that will listen - just so I can possibly reach "some" will all be
worthwhile! 1Cor 9:22
On Feb. 26, 1974, in a back pew at First Bible Baptist Church in
Greece, N.Y., I accepted Jesus into my heart. This didnt come about easily--I was
born a rebel, with a fire and drive that few people ever attain. I grew up totally
independent-- at 14 I was a "professional" dog trainer--I was competing with
Schutzhund (attack) dogs against all sorts of men, the only woman at that time doing such
By the time I was a teen, I had such an "EGO" it would have
put "FONZIE" to shame! I ran with the "wild crowd". I broke horses
during the day and worked as a go-go dancer at night--and owned a herd of German Shepherds
that were so well trained, we gave demonstrations at all kinds of shows, fairs, and
exhibitions. My life was so hectic I had no room for religion - even though I was raised
as a Catholic. I rejected any form of religion at 17, when my grandmother died.
Im just not the kind of person that has "Blind Faith"!
Religion was full of HYPOCRISY--They were all a bunch of self-righteous PHONIES! Then in
72 I moved to Bailey Rd. in Hilton, with my husband and two little boys. We bought
the property because it was ideal for my dogs, but the realtor warned us that our Road was
called "Holy Hill"
because there were FANATICS living all over the place!! I
laughed and told him not to worry--We were tough--my husband was a Black leather
Jacket" biker-you know "DRUGS, BOOZE, AND HARLEYS". I'd seen Rick whip 4
men in a bar once--he had "BORN TO RAISE HELL" (among other things) tattooed
right down his arm! So when these people started knocking on our door to
"witness" they were in for a big surprise! They were always met by my husband
(usually in a demonic-drug crazed mood) and several "attack" dogs!
I chose to ignore them at first, but they kept on preaching"
until I got SO ANGRY, I STARTED TO FIGHT BACK! I had been a fighter all my life-- always
the leader--I thought I KNEW it ALL! I'd show these pathetic wimps--I DONT NEED A
CRUTCH! I WAS SO HARD, NOTHING could touch me! Yet the more l fought "him" --the
more he broke my heart--I fought like a fish out of water--but he kept drawing me like a
magnet--MY HEART WAS LIKE HARD COAL, but he wanted to turn it into a diamond! I wrote the
entire testimony of that night in February when my lights wouldnt work, and how I
got trapped into waiting at the church--and how I ended up listening to that preacher--but
it was too long--so all I will repeat is the end--ACTUALLY THE BEGINNING--I will never
forget that night! I had been "preached to" by so many people for over 2 years,
and I always gave them such a good fight!
Even though deep inside, I could feel Jesus trying to "touch"
me - I just kept REJECTING Him! I would tell these Christians - "You cant prove
the Bible is TRUE!" and Jesus would say "BUT THE NATURAL MAN RECEIVETH NOT
THE THINGS OF THE SPIRIT OF GOD; FOR THEY ARE FOOLISHNESS UNTO HIM; neither
can he KNOW THEM, because they are spiritually discerned."
Yes, I did say JESUS said this to me because HE IS THE WORD--made
flesh--and the Bible IS A LIVING book! If you think Im NUTS--then why dont you
stop being afraid of it and CHECK IT OUT! NOBODY HAS EVER BEEN ABLE TO PROVE IT WRONG! The
Bible is the MOST scientifically correct book you could find anywhere! God said He would
preserve his word - and Satan hasnt ever been able to get rid of it! So instead he
tries to perverse it by teaching lies--THE BIGGEST LIE has been RELIGION!
Theres so much going on around us each day that we are not aware of! FOR WE
WRESTLE NOT AGAINST FLESH & BLOOD, but against PRINCIPALITIES, against powers,
against the rulers OF the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in High
Places. EPH 6:12. John 16:32 "These things I have spoken unto
you that in me ye might have peace- In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good
cheer; I have overcome the world." I would like to urge everyone to get a
NAVES TOPICAL BIBLE and look up words like "WORLD" and read exactly what
God has to say about it! Also words like "SIN", "HELL",
"JUDGMENT", "SATAN", IGNORANCE", "CHURCH",
"FAITH", "GRACE", "PRIEST". "HYPOCRISY",
"REPENTANCE", "RIGHTEOUSNESS", "GOD", "LOVE", and
"SALVATION"! I promise you Jesus will touch your heart! Read about TRUTH - Jesus
said, "I Am The Way - The Truth and The Life - no man cometh unto the Father but
"FOR THE WORD OF GOD IS OUICK, AND POWERFUL, AND SHARPER THAN ANY
TWO EDGED SWORD, PIERCING EVEN TO THE DIVIDING ASUNDER OF SOUL AND SPIRIT, AND OF THE
JOINTS AND MARROW. AND IS A DISCERNER OFTHE THOUGHTS AND INTENTS OF THE HEART." Heb.
The WORD was pounding in my head - Id wake up at night
remembering certain verses! I just had to prove to myself that this was just some kind of
big SCAM! I wasnt stupid enough to believe what some "PERSON" told me--I
was a leader--not some weak "gullible" fool!
I am ashamed to admit--that I started asking God for a "sign"
and then each time He gave me one--I would just chalk it up as coincidence! Thank God that
He is patient and long suffering, not wishing that ANY should perish! This "WAR
inside of me grew stronger and stronger--my husband got worse and worse--things were
coming apart at the seams--I screamed for those people to leave me alone! Yet I could feel
Gods hand in my life, and he was becoming more and more real!
THE FOOL HATH SAID IN HIS HEART, THERE IS NO GOD-
THE HEAVENS DECLARE THE GLORY OF GOD: AND THE FIRMAMENT SHEWETH HIS HANDY WORK Psalm 19:1.
For the preaching of the cross is to them that perish foolishness: but into us which are
saved it is the power of God. 1 Corr.1:18, For after that in the wisdom of God the world
by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to SAVE THEM THAT
BELIEVE. 1 Cor 1:21
What was this all about? Did I really need salvation? I was a good
person--granted, maybe I
was a bit wild, but I was honest--I
didnt steal or cheat--I worked hard, I took Pride in my accomplishments--then I got
stuck in that church that night and I heard a sermon about PRIDE! I heard about
Satans "I" trouble -"I" will ascend "I" will be like
the most high - It went on and on.
BOAST NOT THYSELF OF TOMORROW, FOR THOU KNOWEST NOT WHAT A DAY WILL
BRING. Prov 27:1. COME NOW, LET US REASON TOGETHER, SAITH THE LORD ISA.1:18 WHERE AS YE
KNOW NOT WHAT SHALL BE ON THE MORROW, FOR WHAT IS LIFE? It is a vapor, that appeareth for
a little time, and then vanisheth away. James 4:14. It all started to come together- FOR
WHAT IS A MAN PROFITED IF HE SHALL GAIN THE WHOLE WORLD, AND LOSE HIS OWN SOUL? Or what
shall a man give in exchange for his soul? Math 16:26. For they that are after the flesh
do mind the things of the flesh, but they that are of the Spirit - the things of the
spirit Rom.8:5-6-7 and 8, So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God. John 3:7
MARVEL NOT THAT I SAID UNTO THEE, YE MUST BE BORN AGAIN!
All these verses kept going through my head, as this lady, with the
sweet southern accent turned around facing me and asked, ARE YOU SAVED? Right then and
there I came unglued--I became MUSH! The pride slipped away, the SHELL HAD CRACKED - and
the Holy Spirit could come in! On my knees, in the back of that church, with tears
streaming down my face as Nancy read verses, I asked Jesus to come into my life!
Immediately I had a hunger for The Word--I went home that night to read Revelations!! Jean
had told me that if I got saved, I would be able to understand the Bible--before that
night reading it just didnt make any sense--but after I got saved, it was as if a
veil had been lifted--and the book became alive and I understood! After reading the word,
I realized how wrong "religion" really was--and I proceeded to study ONLY the
Bible--not what man has said--only what GOD said! If you dont know his word, Satan
has you pinned against the wall!
He that rejecteth me, and receiveth not MY WORDS, hath one that Judgeth
him: THE WORD THAT I HAVE SPOKEN, THE SAME SHALL JUDGE HIM IN THE LAST DAY. John 12:48.
STUDY TO SHEW THYSELF APPROVED UNTO GOD, A WORKMAN THAT NEEDETH NOT BE ASHAMED, RIGHTLY
DIVIDING THE WORD OF TRUTH, 2 Tim 2:15.
Then Satan came along and said are you CRAZY? You have just been
divorced, you now have your whole life ahead of you--and you choose to become like those
fanatics?! Thats when I realized that being a "Christian" wasnt
going to be easy!! That was the beginning at a long road--full of lessons--But even though
I walked through the valley of death many times, in many different ways, HE HAS NEVER LEFT
ME OR FORSAKEN ME!
When Im "right" with the Lord--in the Spirit--as I
study the Word I have found that he gives me the greatest "HIGH" I have EVER
experienced. NOTHING compares to it! Nothing!
These past 14 years I have spent many hours studying the scriptures--as
with everything else I do--I jumped in with both feet!! I certainly dont have ALL
the answers--but I do have many!! I regret that I have not spent as much time on the other
subjects of the Bible, as I have spent on Prophecy--but that has been my "gift"
right from the start. I have done many deep searches and studies on various topics--but I
always end up on prophecy--it is so exciting to be living in the "last days"
that sometimes I just cant understand why people just "go on living"
without any desire to "feast" on the things God has revealed to us about our
I have read practically every commentary ever written from Clarence
Larkin, to Colin Deal - and have received all of the Newsletters from all over (mostly
from Christian brothers and sisters in different parts of the country that I met through
Shiloh). Yet never before have I felt such an URGENCY about sharing what God is revealing
to me! We ARE living in the LAST DAYS! What God prophesied 4,000 years ago has come to
Pass - The signs are all around us - but worst of all--APOSTASY has slowly been setting
in!! BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE PLEASE READ GODS WORD!
There is so much more that needs to be said - but Im out of
space. Recently I read a book by JEWS FOR JESUS - Its full of testimonies - I would
strongly urge you to get a copy and read it - It shows how different people from all walks
of life, backgrounds etc-, all having one thing in common (Jesus) found the road to
Salvation! Please write to:
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P.S. Someone that read this just screamed at me you cant
print this in this Newsletter! People dont want to hear it - you will lose all your
business!!! Nobody will buy dogs from you - They will think you have "flipped".
And the Spirit brought to remembrance 2 Tim.1: 12 FOR THE WHICH
CAUSE. I ALSO SUFFER these things: NEVERTHELESS I AM NOT ASHAMED: For
I KNOW whom Ive believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have
committed unto him against that day. You see, the Word has an answer for everything -
if you will only open your heart and let him in! BEHOLD, I STAND AT THE DOOR, AND
KNOCK: If any man hear my voice and open the door - I will COME IN TO HIM!! Rev. 3:20.
He that testifieth these things saith, SURELY I COME QUICKLY. Amen. Rev.
EVEN SO - COME LORD JESUS!
About 8 months ago I prayed that the Lord would fill my lonely hours,
now dont get me wrong I love my children and would be lost without them - I love my
dogs and need to be with them, - but I need adult human contact. Sure I get calls all day
long from people all over the world that ask about my dogs, and people drive here -and fly
here from everywhere to talk dogs - but they dont fill my human emotional VOID. In
September I tried to turn totally to the Word - and I filled my spiritual need, bull I
still had a big emotional HOLE left.
So I asked God desperately to fill that EMPTINESS - and boy did he ever
answer my request!! (Not exactly the way I expected) - but then he said "For my
thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways saith the Lord. Isaiah
The next day I got a call from a dear lady that was getting one of my
pups - She called about her pup, and we ended up talking for 3 hours about the Lord!! She
said I had really helped her spiritually - and that she felt my answers were a "God
Send" to her!! This was the beginning of my phone counseling sessions! Since then I
have had many people state that I have helped them find the answers they were seeking
If I can be of any help to you - PLEASE CALL!! God has an answer for all of
mans problems - in His word!
Please follow Tina's progress by continuing to the
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