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Over a decade has passed since I wrote that page for our "Christian Corner." Yes, the phone started to ring. The next three years were extremely emotionally exhausting, but they also provided the greatest blessings (and cursing) I had ever known. How can you have both blessing and cursing at the same time? The word of God is a two-edged sword…Heb 4:12….For the WORD of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper then any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and IS a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Everything that is "of the flesh" will be "burned up" because it is nothing more then hay, wood, and stubble. 1 Cor 3:12-15….. Eph 6:11-17………I tried to put on the whole armor of God, daily, but often satan would attack when I was unprepared. I now know that I didn’t focus enough on verse 18, and that is still my problem today…..I get so busy with "the world" that I have no time left for "THE WORD." Yet my Father is merciful to us despite our failings. The Blessings? During those few "intense" years of satanic warfare, I was surrounded with miracles! The stronger the battle, the greater the victory! In 1 Cor 13:12 Paul writes that now we "see through a glass darkly," but during my greatest trials, my eyes would be "opened" ever so slightly, like Elisha’s servant in 2 Kgs 6:16-17. There is no doubt, and never has been, in my heart that God is in control! ? The Cursing? While I fought some very difficult spiritual battles for the people that called on my help, I took my eyes off my dogs….giving them to the Lord, once again. Those years yielded the most AWESOME dogs I have ever seen, before or since!! My dream had become a reality, and I was anxious to share it with the world………yea, "the world." "I" worked very hard to get my "breed" recognized! After all, these dogs were AMAZING….all I had been striving for had come to fruition!! "I" wanted to see them bred from coast to coast! "I" loved the praise people gave me at the shows, so I went into debt just to attend all of those shows……..so that "I" could bask in all of the "world's" praise! "I" had to focus on teaching all these people how to continue a sound breeding program, so that these dogs would go on forever! "I" started the VIB program, devoting more & more of my time to the "future breeders" instead of the Lord’s work. Soon after, Satan started attacking the club, breed, etc.. so "I" had to spend most of my time "putting out" his fires! "I" was developing an "I" problem, and my bible was collecting dust! What have I learned over the past few years? LOTS! In my original testimony I wrote; For I KNOW whom I’ve believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day! In 1974 I committed my "breed" to the Lord, they were even renamed for him! I know that HE will not forsake this covenant! Just look at his people (the Jews), although they were scattered among the nations for nearly 2000 years, he brought them home as promised! Israel is a miracle that many people do not bother to really "look at" because it proves, that God is in control! Can I expect any less from him, concerning the dogs that are called by his name? NO! I have put their future back in his hands, and agreed to once again be satisfied with just being his servant. Oh, I know..that while "in the flesh" I put Y’SHUA HA MASCHIAH on the club stationary as "Chairman of the Board"…. but nobody bothered to consult him before making any "club" decisions! Yes, I had the "fish" in our logo, but it only started wars, because "club members" were "offended" by it! I tried to share the word with a few people, but they only pretended to listen, because they wanted me to give them dogs! Yes, I have learned a lot of lessons over these past 25 years……from the time I met my neighbors on "holy hill" to this day. NOW I plan to spend less time studying prophecy & demonic warfare, and spend more time learning from the examples the Lord has left us in the old Testament! If you take some time to study the lives of David, Saul, Daniel, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, Zechariah, Mordecai (the good guy) Haman (the bad guy) in the book of Esther, as well as many others……the life of Moses, Joshua, Caleb, etc….you can truly learn so much! Last year, while the wars were raging, my Pastor told me "all your life you have expected instant obedience from your dogs, yet you are not willing to do as much for God!" It took a long time to sink in, but then I heard Ray Bolts’ song "Thank You" and the words tore at my heart, I wondered how many souls will NOT be there because of my disobedience? Math 6:19-34 says it best……….Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, were moth and rust doth corrupt, where thieves break through and steal: But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also……..No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon………But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. …….. I never cared about earthly "wealth" but I guess I didn’t care enough about Heavenly treasures, either! My focus has been changed, as it used to be…. I know that my father will use my dogs, to bring people to me that need to hear HIS words. My responsibility is to be an obedient servant……..not to cast my pearls before swine……but to let the Spirit lead in all things. No, I am not perfect, and I know that I will probably fall many times along the way, but I have a new Vision, and will try not to run around on "bunny trails" any more! John 3:14 (says) And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up: Lift Jesus higher, lift Jesus higher, lift him up for the world to see……If I be lifted up. I will draw all men unto me……a lot of "Christians" sing this song in churches all over the country, but do they know (or care) what this song really means? My song these days comes from Ps. 25…….and I claim his Words in 2 Thess 3:3 But the Lord is faithful, who will establish you, and keep you from evil. ************************************ If you have a question, about life, or anything…….I would like to assure you that you CAN find the answer in his WORD. Please click on to this Bible link I have worked with it, and it is very simple! Keep it on the KJV-AV if you want the PURE word. If you would like a "different" version, then just click on to the little "I" box, for the INTERLINEAR , or the "F" for the 1917 Scofield Reference notes, etc. If you still have questions, please feel free to e-mail them to me. Please follow Tina's progress by continuing to the next chapter. Tina's Testimony (1987) | Tina's Testimony (1998) | Sharing (July 1999) | The Fire's Aftermath (Jan 2000) | TINA's OnELiST Letters Jan-Feb 2000 | Urgent Letter Feb 2000 | Sharing: April 2000 | Tina's Leap of Faith (April 2000) | Sharing: AUGUST 2000 Food for Thought | Other Christian Links | Pray for israel
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